I have come to grasp a little more that i am actually loved by the Lord. That fact alone, i am discovering, is worthy of building my life around.


It’s the ultimate hope because its the ultimate love, it turns evil into a mere measurement used to impress on us the sheer magnitude of it. It is the trump card to guilt, inadequacy, loneliness, and purposelessness.


It brings new meaning to that verse, Philippians 4:7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guar d your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus. God is so good! I am loved, and i can barely believe it. Sitting quiet in awe can be the only response for a talker like me.

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